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Sunday, 4 December 2005
Long Day
Mood:
 hug me
Topic: Vampires
Yesturday was such a long day. I slept overat my friend Matt's house with a couple of friends the night before and all I had for fun yesturday was watching tv. Matt and his g/f Katie were fighting all day and decided to brake up and just be friends. It was pathetic. All I could think about the entire time was if I'd see CLY or not. I can't get him out of my head.
Well...to the fun stuff...I ended up going to this house that was pretty haunted with CLY and our friend Dix. Everything was pretty interesting and got so much better while CLY and me let our vampires out. Oh Serena yurned to come out and I was bitten hard on my neck by CLY to bring her out. I felt so whole again while we were doing this. Its been sooo long. CLY and I wanted to go around biting mortals but decided we did'nt want to get into too much trouble. It would have been fun though.
Later on, I wanted to contact spirits that were around that I could sense. I sat at the top of the stairs and started seeing a little boy sitting on the ledge, against the banister. He was playing with a doll and twisting it's head around with anger while singing a melody that I started humming. No one knew where it came from, but it was interesting. I also saw a teenage girl with long light hair sitting on the day bed starring off to the other side of the room. I remember she was trying to be propper as her mother was yelling at her. For some reason she made me say, "Yes, Mommy." That part was a bit disturbing.
I wish sometimes I could tell the world about vampires and how awesome they are. I have a vampire spirit in me, her name is Serena. An old group of friends and I all had vampire spirits in us and found out they all had a connection a long time ago in Russia. The most powerful of all of us was, Korana, a vampire prince. Korana had a brother named Drake, whom was in love with Serena. Korana was in love with Kat, another powerful vampire in Russia. Serena and Kat were good friends, so we all connected in some way.
I got Serena near Peabody Park. It is said this a very haunted park and is very dangerous at night. This is true. My friends and I went there one night. Before I had serena I was very strong at sensing spirits. The power there was so strong, I could'nt even walk. I saw spirits everywhere. Some scared me, some saddened me. While we finally got out, I noticed a dark ora down the street, and I felt it was watching us. I flipped out cause I knew it was a vampire spirit. I wanted it, I felt conneted. At the same time I needed it. While I was in the park, something else was trying to take over my body amd the vampire spirit casted it away. I found out her name the first night. I kept hearing her singing and asking me if I could hear her. It was awesome and I don't regret ever recieving her.
Posted by blakbutterflyfairy
at 11:03 AM CST
Wednesday, 30 November 2005
Just A Friend
Mood:
 crushed out
Topic: Gothic Life
Another night gone down the drain. Ah I feel emotionally dead. I am starting to feel nothing...kinda a BAD thing. Mabye feeling nothing can be a good thing though...atleast I wont hurt anymore...RIGHT? Mabye im just out of my freakin mind.
Tonight I got that "Just Friends" pit-full of darkness deal. Oh that just made me feel all "Warm and Toastie"! Now, who in thier right mind would like that comming from a person you just cannot get over? It sucks. Tonight sucks. Hell...everything sucks...
Posted by blakbutterflyfairy
at 10:02 PM CST
Just A Friend
Mood:
crushed out
Topic: Gothic Life
Another night gone down the drain. Ah I feel emotionally dead. I am starting to feel nothing...kinda a BAD thing. Mabye feeling nothing can be a good thing though...atleast I wont hurt anymore...RIGHT? Mabye im just out of my freakin mind.
Tonight I got that "Just Friends" pit-full of darkness deal. Oh that just made me feel all "Warm and Toastie"! Now, who in thier right mind would like that comming from a person you just cannot get over? It sucks. Tonight sucks. Hell...everything sucks...
Posted by blakbutterflyfairy
at 10:01 PM CST
Tuesday, 29 November 2005
When will it END
Mood:
 down
Topic: Gothic Life
Well, I guess it is just another day in the life of Bree. I feel so kruddy today that I just moped around my house watching TV half the day. Now, I am sitting here waiting on the one I have been waiting for a long time now.
This life sux at this rate, and friends arent around...or they just don't help. Everyone is telling me to move on...whats the use? I have nothing better to do. I am now suffering for the worst weekend of my life. I am now Boyfriendless, Best-friendless, and even Jobless. I stare at the scares on my left wrist and wonder if he will ever come back to save me from them...but I guess the other girl has more problems than I do.
What is that royal crap about people never helping themselves anyway? It kills me seeing him falling back to her over and over and over again. I wish I could show him what she is REALLY doing to his poor sensitive soul. I love him...and nothing can stop me. Come back to me dear, and I will make your every wish come true...I love you CLY, from dusk till dawn...and dawn till dusk.
Posted by blakbutterflyfairy
at 5:04 PM CST
Monday, 28 November 2005
Bad Weekend
Mood:
crushed out
Wow. Now I know what it is REALLY like to be cheated on. It sucks. I feel so worthless...so dark. I don't think I will ever find the kind of guy that I am looking for. Mabye he's just in the shadows, behind a corner, thats in a closet...far far away...on the other side of the world. I've given up hope. I guess it is just time for this goth to sit in her castle in the daytime winding her fingers, alone in the dark behind opaque curtains. Yeah-I'm out of my mind, but atleast i have an open one...
Posted by blakbutterflyfairy
at 10:31 AM CST
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